Wednesday, December 06, 2006
well more den half my hols has passed and i havent gotten much accomplished yet
juz been spendin time with the girls and of coz david
going for pilates,gym,tuition,springcleaned my room,finding myself a new eyecandy
besides tt ive juz been stayin home all day long
thinkin about everythin
not startin on work and revision
i swear i'll start soon
the impact of what i did last thurs night only began to sink in over the past few nights
lyin in bed thinkin and thinkin
i wish i could be a better person den wad i am
whats gonna happen to my life next i dunno
but its as tho a huge stone got thrown out of my heart
from deep within
will i really give up on certain things in my life including red cross which i hate and love simultaneously
if i was given another chance, would i have another kind of life
one where i dun have to feel as tho my heart could burst anytime
i could feel myself changin day by day
or mayb im juz hypnotisin myself
tellin myself what is right
i dun tink i have anymore strength left in me
how do i learn to trust and have faith
how can i not hurts others and myself
when will i stop acting so rashly and sayin things i dun mean to
what is it tt matters nwwhat is right what should i dowho am i
laleeee ;
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